For My Mummy ❤️!

My Mummmmyyyy!

I miss you sooooo much.

I honestly do not know what to say right now but I know for sure that you're in a better place.

Mummy I didn't know how to feel when I figured out that you already died.....yes I had to figure it out myself and just wait for them to tell me.

You know, we had a really strong ... unbreakable bond and for some reason I never actually thought you'll leave this early.....but what can I do?

You were such a happy person, a very sweet person too. My own prayer warrior and gist partner. Whenever I had something going on in my life.... I'd always call you to tell you about it.

My babeeee, the absolute life of the party, every moment with you was sooooo lively.

I really miss the times when I'll just call you to rant about everything then you'll just pray with me and I automatically just feel better. That one time when I was heartbroken, I didn't know what to say and how to explain it to you but after you found out ,you just made me feel seen and told me God is in control. You were soooooo interested in my life, you wanted to know everything going on with me,one very intentional mother.

Even the conversations we had about my life decisions , when I always mentioned that I wanted to marry one person and you'll just laugh and give me one longggg lecture.

I miss the times when I'll just randomly come into your room and you'll just let me do whatever, times I disturbed you, the times when I made mistakes that made you soooo pissed at me. Mummy I miss hearing your voice, now it's like I don't even know what you sound like anymore.

I miss the times when you'll randomly shout my name "Fiyinfoluwa". I miss our car rides, I was always complaining about how the A/C was too much for me but you'll just turn it off for peace to reign. You never really made me feel like I wasn't doing enough, you were always there, always encouraging me and making sure I was doing my best... I never for once felt pressured, you always supported my decisions even when I wasn't so sure that was what I wanted.

Mummy , I remember when I was trying to figure out my whole life and I was dealing with "identity crisis"..... I didn't know what to do and I just called you and I was crying soooo much but you prayed for me and told me not to worry that everything will fall in place for me.... You never failed to remind me that God will always be there for me.

You raised me to be a very strong woman like you and you never for one moment made me feel left out.....you always told me and asked for my opinion before doing something, you'd always ask me if what you wanted to wear was okay and I'll just laugh and tell you that you weren't Gen z .

Mummy ,the times when you'll bring up stories about when I was younger and even though I acted like I was tired of listening, I enjoyed every single one of it....Mummy I'm sooooo happy that I came through you, I'm happy that I was able to build a meaningful relationship with you.

Mummy, everybody keeps saying I'm currently living in denial but what can I say? I guess they're right.

It's really hard for me and I'm still finding it hard to believe that you're actually gone and there'll be nobody for me to rant to anymore, nobody to tell how much pain I'm holding in and how I feel. But I know for sure that you're always with me and you want the best for me.

I know these words are not enough to express how I feel but just know I love you.

Rest well Mummy Fiyin🕊️

Your baby misses you sooooo muchhhhhhh😭❤️!